Hobby

What is your hobby?  Why do you enjoy it?

This. This is my hobby.  Writing. There’s nothing that I enjoy as much as writing, except reading a good book. I’ve always made it a hobby. I started writing when I was twelve, and I spent all my free time in my room, writing stories in journals. I enjoyed it, because it was the one place I felt like I belonged. The characters in my stories were people I could relate to. The storylines were things I was interested in. And I felt that I could speak my mind without judgement.  I don’t have a way with words when it comes to speaking. But when I put those words on the page, it’s different. I know my voice, and that means something to me.

I have found multiple ways to write.. I used to only write stories. When I expanded beyond, taking workshops in nonfiction and in poetry, I found that I could express my thoughts even more. I wanted to.

I don’t understand a lot about the world, and I don’t always know how to express myself to that same world, but I can express myself in the page. I enjoy it most because, when my thoughts are written on the page, I know who I am.

It’s also just therapeutic. I can express my feelings in poetry. I can escape the world and fall into a fictional world full of characters that I love. It’s the same feeling I get when reading a book, only I get to create the words, and I love that just as much.

Fears

Write a poem using someone else’s biggest fear as the title

Commitment

 

Unable to look beyond the fear

That I could never let someone else in —

Fully.

Completely.

As if staring into another’s eyes can be

Interrupted.

Unable to hold a gaze.

 

And I ask myself why —

Am I afraid of letting someone else see me?

Completely.

Am I afraid of allowing myself to

Open up to another?

To Trust someone?

Unconditionally.

 

How can I if I can’t take the time

To hold another’s gaze?

We all sometimes feel —

Awkward.

Alone.

It’s enough to allow the feeling to stop

The need to feel —

Together.

Whole.

 

 

Outlines

Is it easier to write by plotting out the story or free writing?

I personally find it easier to free write. It’s hard for me to plot things out, because I never end up writing the way I planned to. That comes with allowing the piece to write itself. You can tell yourself it’s going to go one way, but when you start writing, the piece might not have the same plan.

I have tried on many different occasions to outline a story, to write character sheets, and to plan. But every time, I change things, my characters don’t fit, and I get bored because the scenes in between large plot points feel boring. I like to just let the story write itself. I like to develop a character by writing their reaction to scenes and allow them to be a part of the plot, not to force them into it.

But I knew that doesn’t work for everyone.. Some people need to outline and plan, and that’s cool too. I wish I had the discipline to plan something and stick to it, but I just don’t. I lose interest in a piece if I know too much ahead of time.  I’ve seen some very well developed outline from other writers and it’s impressive, but I think it’s easier storing those characters in my head, until they’re on the page.

Alone

Do you like to be alone or do you like to have company?

I think it depends on my mood. Really, I think we can all agree with that. No one likes to feel lonely, but sometimes people do like to be alone. There are a lot of times, at the end of the day, that I just want some down town with myself. I like to unwind and watch Netflix or Youtube videos. Other times, especially when I’m camping with family, I like staying up late and having deep conversations about anything. It just depends on my mood and where I am.

My days are like that too. Some days, I don’t feel like being around people or I just don’t feel like talking much. And other days,  if I’m not around people much, I do end up feeling lonely.

It’s a weird concept when you think about it. I feel like the people we are around can change our moods, and the lack of people in our lives can change our moods too. We rely on human contact to keep us happy, but sometimes we don’t have to. And that’s okay. We spend so much of our time relying on the opinion of others and doing what others want us to do, that we forget to live for ourselves. We need that time alone to remind us who we are and what we want as individuals.

Procrastination

How do you stop yourself from procrastinating when it comes to writing?

I don’t think there is a way to stop it. I think sometimes we need to take our time doing something, because we can’t force ourselves to do something we don’t want to do or aren’t ready to do. I do that almost every other day as a write. Sometimes I have things I need to get off my chest, and other days I’m just not in the mood. I ran into that problem just this week. I was out of town and my schedule became unpredictable. I kept telling myself that I needed to write, but I just didn’t feel like it. I needed a few days to get away from it and clear my head.  I needed to, because I try not to force myself to write, when I don’t know what to say. A piece should be able to write itself. If it’s forced, then it’s not going to have the potential it could have if it had been inspired.

On the days you want to write but don’t know what to write, don’t push anything complicated. Write about the chair you’re sitting in. Write about what you had for breakfast. It doesn’t have to be perfect, just something to get yourself writing. But some days, you won’t even want to write about breakfast, and that’s okay too.

But sometimes the job really does need to be pushed along. Motivation is the only thing that overcomes procrastination, not just in writing, but in everything we do in life. You just have to want it enough and you’ll get the job done.

Inspired By

Write a poem inspired by another poem you’ve read.

Doubt

After Our Greatest Fear

 

She’ll always deny

the things that push her

forward.

She’ll forever tell

herself she’s not 

good enough.

 

Even when they praise

her name,

and tell her nice things,

she claims she doesn’t

believe a word.

 

On some level,

she knows

that they are right.

Her talent is enough.

Heart as pure as gold,

eyes kind and bright.

 

But she’s afraid to admit

this to anyone

because her heart

won’t seem pure,

and her eyes

won’t look kind.

 

But he told her 

to let her light

shine,

because he hates

the way he feels.

 

And if someone so kind

can’t see her own heart,

how can he expect

to find his own?

Writer’s Block

How do you overcome writer’s block?

The key isn’t to force your writing. If you find yourself staring at a blank page, walk away and come back. Find inspiration in the world around you. Read a book. Take a walk. Call someone on the phone. You may not find inspiration from a blank page. If you force your writing, it’s not going to come out the way you want to. You have to let a piece write itself.

Most of the time, when I write, I have no idea what I’m going to say. I just start typing and the words just come to me as I go. That’s where my best writing comes from. And if I can’t get the words to come, then I take a break, because I don’t want to say what comes from my head. I want to write what comes from my heart.